Ever since I graduated college I’ve been a major dreamer.
No, I take that back, for as long as I can remember I’ve been a major dreamer. I still have some of my notebooks filled with story ideas and I could still specify the details of some of my old alter-egos I cooked up as a kid. I’m grateful for the space my parents created for me to have an imagination. I didn’t have every moment planned out for me and definitely didn’t have a screen in front of my eyes (not that I could have, it was the 90’s).
But I think post-college is when it really hit. It never really goes away, does it? The dreaming, I mean.
I started crafting businesses and future careers for myself.
Some of them were dumb. Thankfully kjrock.com is no longer running.
Some of them made little sense. Sure I can sew, but I don’t know what I was thinking when I opened up an Etsy shop to sell headbands. And I really don’t know what I was thinking when I tried to sell perfume necklaces.
Some of them will simply have to wait for a few more years.
Some of them would have taken off had I stuck with them. Oh savvywifey.com, if only I really loved thee.
Oh I wondered about myself for a while. I thought I was some flake who couldn’t settle on one thing and couldn’t give any venture a real chance.
But now I understand a little better that while I have some growing to do in the area of contentment, that’s also a big part of who I am.
I’m a dreamer.
A strength I have is to always be wondering what if? Now I just have to see if asking “what if” will benefit my neighbors, my friends, the stranger.
I have weaknesses I always want to work on, but now I know it’s okay to operate out of the quirks I have, now understanding that sometimes they can be strengths as well. I don’t have to stomp on my tendencies to dream and try and change, and I don’t have to try to be anyone else. Those people already exist. I want to bring my best to the table, and if being my best means constantly throwing out new venture ideas, then okay, let’s do it.