I hate allergy season, because I get one day of the typical allergy symptoms, but then they turn into this horrible cold/sinus infection where I’m exhausted and achy and my throat hurts and my nose runs. I’ve been using toilet paper instead of tissues because I can’t find our tissues, and I refuse to go to the store and buy more. It’s amazing the silly things you sacrifice when you’re lazy for inexplicable reasons.
Yesterday my husband took good care of me and let me lay on the couch while he worked on a print-out board game we’d found. I was on my iPhone, probably on Facebook or Pinterest, when he asked me if I was still glad I married him.
“Of course,” I said, “why are you asking?”
“No reason. Just wondering.”
Some spouses would take a question like this in different ways. Some would think the question ridiculous, while others would realize the question had been coming for quite some time. In my case, it got me thinking. Was I happy with the decisions I’d made over the course of the past couple years? I am glad to say I don’t at all regret my choice in a spouse, but was I happy with the fact that I didn’t go to graduate school right away/at all? Was I fine with the fact that I decided to forgo a good-paying job so I could pursue a dream that a year later would have to be put on hold indefinitely?
I think it’s a good thing to, every once in a while, look back at your past and evaluate your decisions. But never to regret, because we can’t change those decisions. But we can look back and see where those decisions have led us and how they have molded us. We can decide at that point if we like the person those choices created, or if at that point we choose to veer in another direction and try and change who we are in the future.
There are a lot of things I wish I had done. That’s true. Mainly things like taking more risks in day-to-day life. But at the same time, I’m glad I got to experience certain things, and I wouldn’t exchange them for the world.