Ever since I graduated college I’ve been a major dreamer.
No, I take that back, for as long as I can remember I’ve been a major dreamer. I still have some of my notebooks filled with story ideas and I could still specify the details of some of my old alter-egos I cooked up as a kid. I’m grateful for the space my parents created for me to have an imagination. I didn’t have every moment planned out for me and definitely didn’t have a screen in front of my eyes (not that I could have, it was the 90’s). But I think post-college is when it really hit.
It never really goes away, does it? The dreaming, I mean.
I started crafting businesses and future careers for myself.
Some of them were dumb. Thankfully kjrock.com is no longer running.
Some of them made little sense. Sure I can sew, but I don’t know what I was thinking when I opened up an Etsy shop to sell headbands. And I really don’t know what I was thinking when I tried to sell perfume necklaces.
Some of them will simply have to wait for a few more years.
Some of them would have taken off had I stuck with them. Oh savvywifey.com, if only I really loved thee.
Oh I wondered about myself for a while. I thought I was some flake who couldn’t settle on one thing and couldn’t give any venture a real chance.
But now I understand a little better. While I have some growing to do in the area of contentment, that’s also a big part of who I am.
I’m a dreamer.
My tendency to see big pictures, to always desire to create, even to jump to the next thing – if I hone these things, they can be strengths.
So then, what does that mean?
A strength I have is to always be wondering what if? Now I just have to see if asking “what if” will benefit my neighbors, my friends, the stranger. Because, in the end, all the strengths and gifts in the world mean nothing if we don’t bring them to the table. Holding back out of fear… that doesn’t help anyone.
I have weaknesses I always want to work on, but now I know it’s okay to operate out of the quirks I have, now understanding that sometimes they can be strengths as well. I don’t have to stomp on my tendencies to dream and try and change, and I don’t have to try to be anyone else. Those people already exist. I want to bring my best to the table, and if being my best means constantly throwing out new venture ideas, then okay, let’s do it.
Where have you struggled? What about you have you long believed was a weakness, but now you’re beginning to think isn’t?